Forgive or forgivness

Forgive- to stop feeling angry or resentful toward someone for an offense, flaw, or mistake.
Forgiveness- the intentional and voluntary process by which a victim undergoes a change in feelings and attitude regarding an offense, lets go of negative emotions such as vengefulness, with an increased ability to wish the offender well.

If forgiveness is an intentional and voluntary act/words taken by a victim towards another person [perpetrator]: does the offensive act/words have to be done with the intent to harm? If the intent was not to harm, but the impact was harmful: Is there a victim and perpetrator?

If a person states: “they live in a constant state of forgiveness”: Is this person a perpetual victim? If fear, anger, and other emotions are a part of the forgiveness process, does one that lives in forgiveness never experience the fear, anger, and other emotions and feelings?

Is forgiveness expected, required, normal, or a request? Shall a person forgive a system, institution, or set of laws that creates victimhood for them?

Is forgiveness real or a state of constant inequality?

Shall a person forgive themselves, before seeking forgiveness from others?

I was born in these United States of America. I am a person with a disability whom happens to be Black. At a very early age, I survived an accident that would have killed most. As I began to live life, I was not treated the same as others. I was different. I have searched and researched, yet to this day I find no law legalizing this different treatment. I began to thrive, adapting my differences and producing 200 to 300 per cent more than others to qualify for equality. Irrespective of production, effectiveness, or efficiency I was seldom accepted by others, as an equal.

Surviving, living, and thriving in the United states of America, in hindsight, I wonder if Forgiveness has been a subconscious phenomenon my entire life. I wonder how I would have been, and how can I continue to thrive in these United states without forgiveness in and throughout my entire being.

Discrimination and harassment are prevalent in this country. Even in Church. Why should I be surprised? The institution of Religion and Church, historically has been a supporter and perpetrator of White Supremacy, Oppression, and Discrimination in this country

FORGIVENESS????